The ‘M’ Word

February 7, 2018

 It’s been almost 3 months since we got rear-ended on the freeway and we finally have our car back from the repair shop. It is just a car but what it really is, is closure on a personal matter. Because on the very morning of the car accident, I had taken an at-home pregnancy test and gotten the “Pregnant” news. I had already felt some changes in my body which prompted me to take the test. Validated. And ecstatic. Second time around means my instincts are right, right?

Well, fast forward to a (stressful) week or two after the accident and I woke up in the early morning to cramping. A whole lot of cramping. I guess my instincts were right, but my mind and my heart pushed it aside. I lay in bed for a few hours to avoid the trip to the bathroom…

Miscarriage is common. But you never really think it’ll happen to you. What followed: weeks of sadness and anger, a month of dealing with the physical symptoms, and multiple trips to the doctor and lab for follow-up. And my experience was on the easy side – I was only 6 weeks pregnant after all.

I mentioned my miscarriage in an earlier post in January, but wasn’t ready to tackle it in words just yet. But I’m ready now. I’m guilty of one of my main takeways from the experience: why don’t we talk about it more? If it is so common, why is it so commonly a secret? Let’s change that, once and for all.

Thinking of all the mamas who have experienced this and sending all my love. xx


Sweater (here)
Skirt (bought it here | similar styles priced high to low: here for $17, this one will sell out because it’s only $55, here for $168 and here for $248)
Denim Jacket (old but got it here | similar here for $148)
Heels (bought it here | on consignment here and in black here)
Purse (found an olive green version on consignment for $740 here)
Earrings (here)