May 5, 2020

Hope. It’s a powerful word isn’t it?

We have been struggling with secondary infertility ever since my first miscarriage in 2017. Several weeks ago I found out that I was pregnant, finally! I was SO HAPPY. Filled with joy, and yet haunted by worry. Because I know not all roads from pregnancy lead to a baby. And unfortunately, again, my pregnancy has veered off course, left me broken hearted and now I’m trying to find my way back to…hope.

Despite my sadness, I know I have so much to be thankful for and my experience pales in comparison to many other women out there – I know this because some of you have reached out to me so kindly with support, advice, warmth and *hope* over the years. Thank you for that, thank you for reminding me that we are not alone.


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  • I am so sorry — each and every miscarriage is a new and raw grief. I wish I had a good answer — sending you many many virtual hugs! Will pray for you and your family, hoping for new beginnings and growing your family in tim, praying for a sense of peace amid the grief.

  • Dear Anh,
    I’m so sorry for your loss. I also struggled with having a second child and my heart goes out to you. Be kind to yourself and take it one day at a time. Grief is complicated and it’s tempting to minimize it by saying you’re lucky to have a child already (as I do) but each loss is real and painful. Right now, your heart is cracked wide open and only time will allow it to repair itself. Sending you love and hope.

  • I am so sorry for your loss. I totally understand what you are going through. I have experienced three miscarriages and although each were at early stages, it feels like a part of you is ripped out of you. I do HOPE that you will get pregnant and have a healthy baby. As you said, HOPE is all we can have, that’s what sets us apart from other species in this world. You are not alone. You have love and support of many of your readers.
    Your fan since the days of the Knot and the Nest

  • I’m sorry that you’ve being going through such a tumultuous time and admire your braveness in sharing your experience and positive attitude.

  • Hi, I never post comments but I wanted to let you know how brave I think you are. To share your fears and vulnerability, and hopes as well, is an act of bravery. I wish I had some words of wisdom, but I don’t. I haven’t been through what you have been through. But I have a daughter and we have been through some trauma and in recovering from it, I remind myself to just look for one small thing that will make us happy today and that gets us a step closer to where we want to be. I wish you the best, You are not alone. I am glad you know that.

  • I am so sorry for your loss — praying for healing and peace in the midst of grief.
    Take some extra self-care for yourself, you deserve it.
    Sending you lots of virtual hugs.

  • Dear Anh I am so sorry to hear this. It is heartwrenching to go through miscarriages and only time can heal. I’ve only gone through one myself and know that having a child already doesn’t take away the pain. Please know I’m right there alongside you wishing so hard for your dream(s) to come true. You are not alone, we are with you. sending so much love and hope to you.

  • I’m so sorry. It’s a hard thing to deal with on top of coping with covid self isolation. I’m hoping that you will get pregnant again soon. Both my sister (at 42) and friend had luck with accupunture, hard I know during covid but I thought it couldn’t hurt to throw that out there.