Ectopic

August 23, 2020

Re-sharing from my Instagram post on Friday here.

16 days ago… I found out I was pregnant.

7 days ago… I found out my pregnancy was not progressing normally. Because of my prior 2 miscarriages my doctor was tracking things closely.

3 days ago… I was treated for an ectopic pregnancy to prevent a rupture.

Heartbroken, nauseous and dizzy but taking it day by day. I’ve talked about my miscarriages before but this is a whole other thing and I can’t quite process how I feel yet. It’s a lot.

I did, however, get an extra, extra long hug from Lucia today and *that* was wonderful.

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I don’t have the words to describe what this experience has been like for me just yet… but I am overwhelmed by the kindness, care and love sent my way through that post. Thank you, thank you a million times. You all have brought me so much comfort and strength over the weekend, especially on the day where the physical pain from this experience got so much harder for me. It means a lot.

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  • I’m so sorry..I never understood why people who seem to be such great parents have so much trouble with having another child.🙏🏻💐

  • my heart breaks for you!!! although never experienced an ectopic pregnancy, I feel your pain. your are not alone in this and thank you for opening up and sharing it. I had several miscarriages and ended with a hysterectomy last winter. it really hasn’t gotten any easier. but remind myself that we are so blessed to have one healthy boy (7).

  • I’ve been following your blog for a couple years. Sorry to hear of another loss. Brave of you to share this journey. I’ve had a miscarriage too – the pain is real. Prayers for you and your family.

  • Big hugs to you. I was just treated for my second ectopic pregnancy in five years. I feel for you, it’s dispiriting and frustrating. I didn’t have too bad a reaction to the methotrexate, though I found I didn’t feel well on the fourth day after the injection. Hold steady and be gentle with your body.

  • I am heartbroken to hear — please accept my deepest condolences and warmest hugs. I pray for peace and your recovery (both physically and emotional), give yourself grace/time to rest/self-care. You deserve it! sending you lots of love and light!

  • I’m so sorry for all that you have endured. An ectopic pregnancy is so painful and so dangerous. I wish there was something I could say to make things easier but I have been thinking of you. Please rest and take care of yourself both emotionally and physically while you heal.

  • Oh Ahn. My heart goes out to you and your husband. I’m so sorry. I want this to happen for you all so much.

    I’m struggling with my own fertility issues at the moment. I never thought I wanted to have kids until the desire hit me when I turned 30. We waited another year due to a big move and late last year I realized conceiving would not be easy. We’re giving it two more years of trying before going for adoption. It worried me for so long, the thought of not having a baby, but I have found peace and happiness in our decision. A weight has been lifted. One way or another we will be welcoming a little one into our lives in the next few years.

  • I’m so sorry. I had an ectopic pregnancy too. I ended up with emergency surgery that night. It was a sad thing that really threw me for a loop. Be good to yourself.